There is so much on my mind lately, it freaks me out. Well Ill start with yesterday: Tyler, Dusty, and Mollie wanted to hang out, well okay ty and dust did, i guess mollie was just stuck being there too... so tyler NEVER called me back that nite, so me and jill did something cuz i love her-- we went to see MEAN GIRLS with bad ash and tad and we saw 189237819273 people that we knew--the movie was soo packed but SO GOOD! I loved it so much! so then we came home and ash and jilly spent the nite, we were starving but nobody would bring us taco bell so we had 2 pieces of bread and some peanut butter so me and ash had that and jill and ash had spaghetti o's and then i put peanut butter on jills arm and she put it on my NECK ew!!! and in my hair and on my face!!! hahaha it was so funny, then we watched kindergarden cop and I talked to chris<chang> and his friends billie and nick were there so they were gonna come bring us taco bell but they werent allowed so we got tired and went to sleep after a bit... then we got up soo early and ash left and we missed her, and me mom kim and jill went to kentucky looking for costume material and we get all the way there and find out starting TODAY they wont be open on saturdays so great I need a gold dance costume made ... I have a 2 week deadline...not good...

Then we get home and we get ready and go to KI ... me and jill and we met alex hall there, it was really fun! hes funny, we had a good time til it started POURING and we were drenched lol and we had to wait 18237189723 years on my brother cuz he ordered a pizza for him and vic and they had to wait on it then they ate it so we talked to these lebanon girls as we waited and jill told them she had a pool in her house and a lamborgini and they were like WOW! thats so cool... hahaha we laughed...

then mom wouldnt let me do anything once I got home and jill went home, so that stunk and I got mad and I told her she ruined my life and no wonder I dont have any friends so then chris said he would come over later but he never called me back and im super tired and i starred at the wall for like 30 minutes and then started to think i was crazy and reminded me of those depression commericals which freaked me out so I got on here in which erika told me to update because she needed something to read so im making this really long just because im bored and i dont want to go back doing crazy things that freak me out either..

so i talked to joe cope tonite and hes not doing so well in school and that sucks, I know he can get through it though hes so smart, so I hope that works out... I talked to Nic a bit too, he worked tonite and that stunk, he wants to hang out tomorrow but chang wants to go get prom stuff soo i dont know, and oh yeah! tyler said last nite he didnt call back cuz his mom was bein gay like mine was tonite  but then he said we would do something tonite and he never called back again so im getting the hint...

i keep thinking I dont like britney spears except for toxic but I do like this new song which is part of the reason im depressed tonite cuz its sad and weird but oh well lol i have it on repeat this is the 15th time probably ive heard it and i have a headache and i feel like i should be crying but im not lol im so weird...

fields called me twice but i didnt answer cuz i didnt want him to come over cuz i would feel weird around him for certain reasons... but tad kilburn told me some really nice stuff tonite and im proud of him!!!!! He needs a good girlfriend, ne ideas neone? jk lol but hes a nice boy!!!! Sabrina cracks me up lol... I love her... so then chris lovett IMs me and i hadnt talked to him in forever and he asked if i missed him and i actually do after thinking about it so he was gonna come over cuz my parentals are sleeping so they wouldnt have ne idea but then his best friend called and needed him so he didnt but he made me promise we would hang out soon and catch up which is nice because hes a cool person to just talk to, he reminds me of sergio but doesnt make me as happy as sergio does, its incredible the way i freak out if i havent talked to sergio one day... for example, tonite, everybody kept asking what was wrong and i would say nothing, but really it was because he hadnt called me, and right as i gave up and started to dial his numbers he got online and was like HEY i dont have my cell phone which is why i didnt call, cuz his bro has it--and he was gonna come over today but he had the exact same fight with his parents as i did mine--they said hes always gone and never home but hes home alot actually... then he told me he came home tonite bc he found himself starring at the wall also, we also do the same things then find out and its kinda weird, I want to see him so badly... I wanna burn the pictures of him because when I see them it makes me upset but then again I want to frame them too cuz they make me smile, he makes me so happy...

on a more normal note: I still need to go shopping for summer clothes, I got paid today but I didnt pick up my pay check... I never do until like a week later lol I never work its getting gay and I realized Ill never get my license ever prolly and if I do, I wont have a car prob. cuz we are poor haha jk but actually I really prob. wont cuz mom said I would have to pay for gas and insurance and I dont have time to work that much with dance and crap so Ill just live with it lol oh well... and I got a D on my midterm in marketing and bullis gave me a dt for sleeping but took it away, and it wud have started at 615 in the morning so good thing he took it away or else i would have had ISS or whatever comes after detention lol... whoa rebel liv!!! we had that dumb 5 page essay to do in his class too, he makes me mad but I know he has the hotts for me cuz he always tells me I look pretty and talks to me and nobody else and weird stuff lol okay jk but I do think every male teacher at monroe is freakishly nice to girls...

sergios calling-- which means im def. done, have a good nite everybody